Pot Bellies and Wild Hair: Writing Lies, Writing Truth

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“So I made them into one, the foul lot of them,
and killed them all. It was quite satisfying.”

 

Today I wrote of death. Rather, I killed a man.

It’s a strange power we writers have, and a luxury if truth be told. We can create, we can destroy. World building is one way, backstory another. Characters from whole cloth, or woven-together snippets of people we’ve known or met. Or simply passed on the street, online, in dreams. We give them lives then turn around and edit them, in and out of their existence, as it pleases us, pleases the story.

Every word we write is a lie. Lies in search of truth.

And whose truth now? Well, that’s its own tale I suppose. If a book, a book of lies, speaks to me directly, if it strikes my heart, is it true?

Writing is not my therapy, though who and what I’ve learned certainly surfaces. It cannot help but surface. But I don’t use writing to throw my self onto the universe. Instead, I take the truths of it and craft them into lies. I make story of them. I make art.

The man I killed was four men though he could have been a great many more. There is a type in academe: the predator. I have fended off more than a few in my time, mostly as a student when I was vulnerable and they knew it. But once, not too long back, the gent was the husband of a professorial colleague. I was considerably taller, certainly more fierce, and could have floored him in a moment. Still he tried. Always astounds me, the ego of the predator. I used my words, as we say, and he slunk away feigning misinterpretation.

So I made them into one, the foul lot of them, and killed them all. It was quite satisfying. But it also makes a good story which is more the point. My dead man looks like only one of them, and even then I have borrowed features from three other gents of whom I was and am fond: a little pot belly from the one, another’s lovely round head, the wild hair of a third.

But the man is dead and good riddance.

Mystery-writing is new to me. I read ‘em, more now as I need to understand the genre and the market, but I am mainly a non-fiction, science fiction sort of person as well as an artist. Five or so years ago I found I wanted to do something, something large, something bigger than I could not quite see or even, as yet, understand. And I needed to kill someone. So I am using my words again.

The structure of the mystery novel is ideal for my authorial purposes now. It is like the heavy wire armature a sculptor uses as the inner framework for a piece. The wire can be twisted and bent into shape, any shape. The writing is the wire proper, editing and redrafting, the twisting. It holds the work in place. Holds the lies.

I am doing a lot of wire work these days, and a lot of twisting. I feel powerful for it, and humbled. It is easy to kill, less easy to make a story of it. It’s the lying. Lying is easy too. Making it into truth, now that is where the real work is.

 

Partial sculpture of ancient warrior - Wax on a metal armature, mounted on wood

Model for a Fallen for a Fallen Warrior. c. 1520. Attributed to Giovanni Francesco Rustici.

 

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Jablonski, J.A. (2022, July 26). Pot Bellies and Wild Hair: Writing Lies, Writing Truth. Blog post. J.A. Jablonski (website). https://jajablonski.com/2022/07/26/writing-lies-writing-truth/


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Fictional Letters to Authors & Characters Whose Books I Didn’t, Couldn’t, or Wouldn’t Finish Plus One Kick-In-The-Teeth

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“I’ll probably pick up your book again in a few months, Dylan,

after I’ve calmed down, but for now I just cannot get past that one sentence.”

 

DISCLAIMER

The letters below were inspired by a number of books I’ve read over the past year or so that fell into the DNF* category. Some fell there dramatically, some casually for their lack of originality. One I very much wanted to like, and had it been edited a bit better (about 25 fewer pages wouldn’t have killed the story), I would have gone on to finish. But time is short and my TBR** list far too long. I’ve not included any names (of authors, characters, or book titles). To protect the innocent one might say. But mostly I am just having a bit of summer fun.

* Did Not Finish | ** To Be Read

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Vintage French postage stamp shows  woman about to write letter with quill pen as small Cupid looks over her shoulderDear Doreen,

I want you to know that I tried, I really did, but after five chapters (and rereading all five just to be sure) I just didn’t—couldn’t—care. Okay, I admit that was probably your author’s point. Your friends didn’t care, your boss sure didn’t. If your kids did I don’t know. I didn’t read far enough to find out if you had any. And you didn’t seem to care for yourself much either. So, the promise in the blurb—that you’d discover the true meaning of life at some point, or something like that—wasn’t enough to keep me reading.

Those blurbs also noted, by the way, that your author is known for their writerly empathy. Not quite sure what that means, but they may have slipped up with you. Then again, a famous author with whom I am familiar, blurbed that bit too, the empathy thing I mean. The overall voice of your narrative, though, sounded a tad too much like pity to me.

I am glad you are a fictional character, Doreen. I couldn’t say this if you were real . . . but I just don’t like you. And don’t they say that if a character isn’t likable, even if they are evil, miserable, or whatever, if there isn’t at least something . . . well, I guess you know how this is going to end. I hope you found what you were looking for.

1923 US postage stamp shows Lady LibertyDear Dylan,

I came across your book by accident, a serendipitous find, when I was searching the public library catalog. I went all Boolean! Aren’t I mad cool? I needed something about a certain cluster of personality disorders AND comorbidity AND (“social behavior” OR “social manifestation”).

It had to be nonfiction and fairly straightforward. Your title was a curious one that suggested your angle on things might contain something unique. But then I read your first words, something along the lines that your father (or maybe it was your stepfather) had the disorder I was interested in.

Puzzled, I closed the your book to read the back-cover blurbs which I hadn’t yet gotten to. (Just so you know, I look at the entire book when I read. It’s a whole package. I learned that in grad school from some gloriously anal-retentive rare books specialist who wore the funkiest, T.S. Eliot-style eyeglasses.) A slew of notables authored all of your blurbs. Serious notables. “Yikes!” I thought. “What did I miss?” Something probably. If I had hung around to find out maybe I wouldn’t be writing this letter.

But while I truly hate the notion that the first sentence of a book makes or breaks it, in this case it was all too sadly true. It was as if your My parent had X wanted to have the same literary impact as Call Me Ishmael. It didn’t. (Then again I didn’t read all of Moby Dick either.) It made me doubt your take on things from the get go. Honestly, I thought I’d picked up a memoir by an insecure second-born with daddy issues. Yeah, I know. Heartless AF. I’ll probably pick up your book again in a few months, Dylan, after I’ve calmed down, but for now I just cannot get past that one sentence. Sorry.

American postage stamp showing Charles Lindbergh's airplaneDear Carlotta,

I hope you know that an archives, a museum, and a library are not the same thing because it seems your main character hasn’t a clue. I thought your book would be a pleasant escape from looking for comparable titles for my own WIP so my bad there. You could hardly know that I’ve worked in and taught archives and library grad students for a bunch of years.

But that tiny, secret flat in the old wing that the main character rented? (Or did she grow up there as a orphan or with unfeeling parents, which is virtually the same thing isn’t it?) Sorry, but I ran into several I Heart Libraries-themed novels at the same time last year while we were all hunkering down because of (and emotionally escaping from) the Covid horror. (Two had the secret apartment thing going as well.) They all sounded rather the same and rather rote after awhile.

And there was one other thing, Carlotta. I know there are people who do not find libraries (or archives or museums) fascinating places of beauty. Poor them. But people and their interests—no accounting is there, eh? If you turn this mystery into a series though, as seems likely, please do not use up another three quarters of a page in waxing triteness about the glorious smell of old books. We know, we know.

Postage stamp of Sputnik Dear Lucas,

You nailed the setting! Really nailed it! I was there, body and soul. But then the monumental set caved in and buried, smothered, and annihilated the story you were trying to tell. It forced your little coterie of witty, pretty, sexy characters to hold up the sky, as it were, and they just weren’t up to it. But major kudos for having queer characters who were just that, with no grand authorial agenda; just some credible and obvious people who liked whom they liked and everyone was just fine with it. You are my hero, Lucas!

Postage stamp showing American president George Washington in profileDear Kevin,

My dear, dear Kevin. You are not the voice of the Deity when it comes to the use and placement of commas, semi-colons, and en- and/or em-dashes. I realize you have writing credentials as old as dirt but surely you know there are reference tools called style guides. There are lots of style guides out there, too, each written for specific audiences, publications, and reasons. And please do note the word guide. That’s guide, not rule. That means recommended usage not carved-in-stone-my-way-or-the-highway. Editors can help you here. Babies won’t die and empires won’t fall if some wee fleck of punctuation is used in a way you’d not deign to use yourself. Take a chill pill.

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How to cite this post

Jablonski, J.A. (2022, June 22). Fictional Letters to Authors & Characters Whose Books I Didn’t, Couldn’t, or Wouldn’t Finish Plus One Kick-In-The-Teeth. Blog post. J.A. Jablonski (website). https://jajablonski.com/2022/06/22/fictional-letters-to-author/


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H.G. Parry | The Unlikely Escape of Uriah Heep

Cover of The Unlikely Escape of Urish Heep, author photo of  H.G. Parry, Map of London, fountain pen

“It tickled me that while I knew a certain thing had to happen, because that’s the trope or literary tradition Parry was representing, how she twists the representation into a unique thing is what makes it her story—which is precisely how literature works.”

H.G. Parry’s The Unlikely Escape of Uriah Heep (2019) is a delightful, splendid, maddening, curious, detailed, remarkable, tantalizing, intriguing, distancing, overexcited, cheering, and rewarding book. Pieces of it turned up in my dreams immediately after I finished reading it. This only happens if something—person, place, thing, or event—has done something unequivocal to me and my imagination. [1]

The dream pieces were partial images, those I recall seeing as I read but, as within Heep, disappeared and reappeared sporadically. There were a lot of words flying about, differently sized and mostly in serif font. (I think the cover of the book may have had something to do with that.) And there was a quality of light to most of the dreams which was unexpected, a kind of hovering glow of gold satin.

It is an unusual book.

THE STORY

First, the description of the story from Parry’s website:

For his entire life, Charley Sutherland had concealed a magical ability he can’t quite control: he can bring characters from books into the real world. His older brother, Rob—a young lawyer with a normal house, normal fiancée, and an utterly normal life—hopes that this strange family secret will disappear with disuse, and he will be discharged from his life’s duty of protecting Charley and the real world from each other. But then, literary characters start causing trouble in their city, making threats about destroying the world . . . and for once, it isn’t Charley’s doing. There’s someone else who shares his powers. It’s up to Charley and a reluctant Rob to stop them, before these characters tear apart the fabric of reality. [2]

The Difficulty of fiction

Getting into the book was an odd experience. Reading fiction is hard for me, magical realism even more so. My academic training had a goodly component of literary analysis. I did a large piece of research that involved heavy duty content analysis. Then I went on to teach writing and literary analysis for a time, and after that did and taught book and database indexing which requires that one objectify text in order to label its contents for intellectual access.

As a reader, I find it exceedingly difficult to turn off these various aspects of my mind that run at full tilt most of the day. This means reading is never simply that. Add to that fun, I am a long-time writer. The bulk of my career was professional writing with the occasional self-expressing poetry or fictional correspondences as private entertainment. For the last five or six years I have been writing fiction: magical realism, speculative fiction, and academic mystery. [3]

What is so fun about Parry’s book is that none of this mattered while at the same time it thrummed below like a bagpipe’s drone all the while I read. 

And none of this is needed to enjoy The Unlikely Escape of Uriah Heep. It’s a fulsome, fat book that reads fast and fun and goes on and on.

 

IMPRESSIONS

Some thoughts on the book.

Heep takes a little time to get going. Older brother Rob is a bit of a pill in terms of personality. He has the arrogant know-it-all ways of an older sibling and Charley is a bit whiny at first to my tastes. Frankly, I found them both annoying but decided to give Parry benefit of the doubt. Also, analytical-me could see she was doing something. Who, what, and how these brothers are matters.

Parry has her own interesting take on their creation:

Charley because he’s seen mostly through other people’s eyes, so it was difficult to sift through that and see who he really is inside his own head; Rob because he’s so reluctant to get involved with anything outside the norm that he risked missing out on most of the plot! [4]

Once the actual adventuring begins the story takes off. Millie Radcliffe-Dix—a girl detective of Parry’s invention who is a bit of a mix of Nancy Drew and Pippi Longstocking—provides a strong, to my mind stronger, counterpoint to Charley than his brother. When Millie is on stage things seem more coherent. Then again, that is her role and the literary notion of role is central to the characters (those real and those read-in) to the plot, and to the larger tale Parry is creating.

 

Portrait of SHerlock Holmes by Sidney Paget

Sherlock Homes by Sidney Paget

Jane Austen

Jane Austen (based on sketch by her sister Cassandra)

Photo portrait of Charles Dickens

Charles Dickens (From the National Library of Wales)

Characters and creatures begin to appear, seemingly at random at first: Uriah Heep (from David Copperfield) running around Charley’s English Department and a most fiercesome and real Hound of the Baskervilles (from Conan Doyle’s book of the same name) attacking the brothers at Charley’s home. Then their authors start popping up and other authors, or their representations (there are multiple versions of Jane Austen’s Mr. Darcy, each manifesting a certain, different trait of the man as Austen wrote him). Dickens’ Dorian Gray is quite the devious charmer who both moves the plot onward while providing a seething uncertainty beneath the action.

There are coexisting universes, not unlike the mundane reality of a reader and the imagined reality created by the book she is reading. The shifting between the two is puzzling at first—I found myself wishing the book’s editing had been slightly tighter here as the imagery was a bit overwhelming (for me, that is). But the increasing overlap of space, places, and imagination becomes a necessary element of the plot and the story.

It’s difficult to describe further as it might compromise a reader coming fresh to this delightful book. I can say the ending was charming while also satisfying. Somewhere I read that Parry has been asked about writing a sequel and I don’t see how she could without simply repeating herself.  A sequel would simply rerun the tropes and story types she has broken apart this once and so successfully. There were some minor characters, some needed for the plot, some for a kind of comic sensibility, that I’d have edited out, but they do work. (I suspect that’s my English professor persona having a small fit.)

All in all, The Unlikely Escape of Uriah Heep is a book I will want to periodically reread, which I don’t often do unless something about the book took joyous hold of my imagination.

The personal book

I know I am not the only person who felt this but it seemed Parry wrote this book just for me, the one-time academic and academic librarian, the double English major, the been-reading-since-I was-three person. I got to use all my skills and training in cahoots with someone whose skills and training are enough above mine to make reading Heep a sort of game. Could I anticipate a certain next part of the story? Yes! Did I see the occasional inside literary joke? Yes! Did I know the ending because of what I know about how literature, criticism, and storytelling work? Yes.

But even better, not yes.

I knew what was going to happen pretty much all the way through because a close reading of the characters—the literary persons that exist or appear throughout the story and the characters that made the story itself—meant only certain things could happen. So although I knew X would happen or a certain person would do or be something/someone, it didn’t happen quite as I thought it might. I felt genuine childlike glee every time it happened as though Parry and I were playing a game of badminton tapping the birdie back and forth. I got to be Charley (!) who early on explains what reading is for him:

And while I am reading, the new words I’m taking in will connect to others I’ve already taken in . . . . They make a map, or a pattern, or a constellation. Formless, intricate, infinitely complex, and lovely. And then, at once, they’ll connect. They’ll meet and explode. Of course. That’s the entire point! That’s how the story works, the way each sentence and metaphor and reference feeds into the other to illuminate something important. That explosion of discovery, of understanding, is the most intoxicating moment there is. Emotional, intellectual, aesthetic. Just for a moment, a perfect moment, a small piece of the world makes perfect sense. And it’s beautiful. It’s a moment of pure joy, the kind that brings pleasure like pain. (pg. 26)

 

A page later Charley says,

That part is the magic, in that it’s a step further than most people’s reading or analysis goes. It all feels one and the same to me, but that’s where the line crosses from the accepted to the extraordinary. (pg. 27)

But for all that my lit crit and writing background had me primed, Parry often caught me off guard, often in the most wonderful ways. I won’t spoil anyone’s reading with specifics (and there are many opportunities for this). It tickled me that while I knew a certain thing had to happen, because that’s the trope or literary tradition Parry was representing, how she twists the representation into a unique thing is what makes it her story—which is precisely how literature works.

And why writing fiction is so hard! Writers are told to “be original” while also being told that, fundamentally, there are only seven types of stories. [4] So how does one manage? How does one make a type fresh?

In Parry’s case, it was a matter of taking that other adage—write what you know—and converting it to write how you know. About half way through Heep one of the character-people tries to explain something to Rob by saying “If you were in a certain kind of book . . . .” Parry, the writer with a PhD in English Literature, does a version of this. It’s as if she instead asked herself If I were a certain kind of book . . . .

In a 2019 interview, when asked what research did for this book she said “I cheated with this, because I deliberately wrote a book about everything I love and so I knew a lot already.” [5]

It must have been quite freeing to simply cut loose in a way that both honored the breadth and depth of English Literature as a formal field of study while also, in effect, kicking all the formal requirements of literary criticism and analysis right in the teeth.

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Left: The Lady of Shallot by William Holman Hunt

Right: Penelope and the Suitors by John William Waterhouse

The fun I had with Heep has made my years in academe and lit crit so worth it! Witty, heartfelt, & just plain delightful. Parry is not simply a story teller, she is a story weaver: Ariadne unwinding her skein; The Lady of Shallot embroidering images seen in her mirror; Penelope weaving and unraveling her father-in-law’s shroud. She plays, deeply plays, and we and our imaginations are the better for it in so many ways.

 

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ABOUT BOOK THOUGHTS

“Book Thoughts” is an intermittent column within my blog. The essays are not so much book reviews as book responses. I like to converse with and around the books I read. Sometimes I will write more formally, sometimes off the cuff, sometimes almost intimately. I write about what I feel like writing about. A book might have come out a month ago, a few decades ago, or a few centuries ago. I read as I please and when thoughts about the experience come to mind sufficiently, I write them here.

How to cite this post

Jablonski, J.A. (2022, June 8). H.G. Parry | The Unlikely Escape of Uriah Heep. Blog post. J.A. Jablonski (website). https://jajablonski.com/2022/06/08/parry-uriah-heep/


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Sherlock Holmes by Sidney Paget. Via  Wikipedia.

Portrait of Jane Austen, from the memoir by J. E. Austen-Leigh (1798-1874). Via Wikipedia.

Charles Dickens. From the National Library of Wales. Via Wikipedia.

The Lady of Shallot by William Homan Hunt. Via Wikipedia.

Penelope and the Suitors by John William Waterhouse (1911-1912). Via Wikipedia

 

SOURCES & NOTES

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[1] Parry, H. G. (2019). The Unlikely Escape of Uriah Heep.  Redhook.

[2] H.G. Parry’s webpage for The Unlikely Escape of Uriah Heep.

[3] See this section of my website for a rundown of my works done and in progress.

[4] The Quillery. (2019, July 30). “Interview with H.G. Parry, author of The Unlikely Escape of Uriah Heep.” The Quillery website.

[5] Booker, Christopher. (2004). The Seven Basic Plots: Why We Tell Stories. Bloomsbury Continuum. (This link is to the 2019 edition.)

[6] The Quillery. (2019, July 30). “Interview with H.G. Parry, author of The Unlikely Escape of Uriah Heep.” The Quillery website.

Signs of Ideas

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“For me it is a matter of seeing, a posture of mind.

Writers and artists are frequently asked “Where do you get your ideas?” Googling the phrase just now came back with 508,000,000 results. Maria Popova, essayist and creator of The Marginalian website, has written a splendid piece on the question. She opens saying,

Since long before the question of where good ideas come from became psychologists’ favorite sport, readers, fans, and audiences have been hurling it at authors and artists, much to their frustration.” [1]

Melissa Burkley, psychologist and author of the column “The Social Thinker” on the Psychology Today website, addresses the notion in a well-considered discussion of the conscious and unconscious sides, or aspects, of the human mind:

“So how is it that people who make their living writing can’t tell us where their story ideas truly come from? I think the reason has to do with the fact that the human mind is what psychologists call a “dual-process system . . . . Recognizing that ideas don’t just get consciously invented out of thin air is inspiring. Because we all daydream or get bored and find our mind wandering throughout our day. The only difference is that writers have trained themselves to listen to their inner mule rather than ignore it.” [2]

Burkley talks about  handing “the reins off to your unconscious brain.” Easier said than done, of course, given how everyday life and responsibilities can freeze us in the here and now.

At the end of this post I have a few thoughts about how one can shift one’s self from the conscious to unconscious modes (then back again). For me it involves associative thinking, seeing into things (i.e., finding stories in objects), and dreaming.

Associative Thinking

We moved not too long ago and our small house has a little front room we like to call the solarium. It faces west and is filled with plants, a cozy sofa, an early 20th-century secretary desk made of recovered barn wood, and an old stereo system that plays CDs and cassette tapes. I like to sit there in the morning and nosh on my breakfast before my husband wakes up. I look out the windows onto our minor neighborhood street and let my mind wander.

There a many dog walkers and, when it’s warm, people running or walking for their exercise. I recall a moment: a tiny, fierce-looking woman on her morning run. As she ran by a second time and I realized that her running course was just our small city block. I was struck with a fictional notion, an associative notion: I am a 19th-century invalid, one of those fragile ladies from history, like Ida McKinley, the wife of U.S. president William McKinley.

I imagine sitting in one of those elaborate wicker-back Victorian wheel chairs, gazing wistfully out, or perhaps resentfully, as people pass by. I imagine stories . . .

  • A couple, young and in love, the woman dark haired and small. Or perhaps they are older and also in love but for so long a time that the act of the man quietly offering his arm to his wife belies decades of passions spent and enjoyed;
  • A smallish woman with her hair in a proper updo pushing an elaborate pram, her child so longed for and now so deeply cherished; or perhaps she is a modern era wife, visibly pregnant with an infant never wanted, another forced pregnancy and the child-to-be resented;
  • A skipping girl, her hair ribbon flouncing about like a bird in flight, a girl who will go on to discover the first fossils in Dorset, or who will be struck down by a mysterious fever before the month’s end;
  • A man, dark-haired, young, and desperately handsome, walking with an older man, his father likely by the matching profiles; desperate in other ways as they appear to be debating, the younger man nearly in tears, pleading with his dear Papa to accept that he is a man now with his own mind, the father devastated to lose his son to heathenism.

All ideas captured, all stories imagined, all triggered by a small, intense woman with dark hair and a prancing runner’s gait who passed by one morning.

First Lady Ida McKinley circa 1900

Ida McKinley in the White House Conservatory (ca. 1900).

Historical Note: McKinley’s mother & two young daughters died within a short period of time leading to a physical breakdown. She developed migraine and epilepsy. Despite her ailments she provided valuable advice and insight re: politics to her husband. She was also an active supporter of woman suffrage. [3]

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Stories from objects

Top: vintage science instruments in open box; Next: same items in smaller paperboard boxes within wood box: Next: Wooden box closed, it has some artsy brushed on images on top; Bottom: Box wrapped in borwn wrapping paper, tied with red yarn, and with vintage postage stamps & special delivery stickers.
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Some years back I was part of a one-day LARP (“Live Action Role-Playing”) children’s theater event. The Harry Potter books were out then and we borrowed the notion of a first day at a magical school as our context. [4]  I played three different characters: an in-person postal delivery person, the six-month, pre-event author/editor of the monthly newspaper, and a Potteresque moving portrait character.

A good many props, sets, costumes, and the like were made. I was responsible for the “Owl Post” deliveries. Each child (there were 19, ranging in age from 9-14) received several letters and a package. I created them all, a total of 125 letters and 19 unique “magical gifts.”

I’ve written fictional correspondences over the years [5] so the letter writing was not easy but familiar. Creating the gifts was more of a challenge. What I ended up doing was wandering through thrift shops looking for things that might be made into something different. It was that posture of seeing again. If you’re looking for magical things then magical things appear.

The top left image shows the found objects assembled for one gift: a long metal tweezers, a scientific measuring device (an expanding spectrometer), a piece of obsidian, and an old wooden pencil box. As with each package, the items were boxed or wrapped or bagged within. And for each a personal letter was enclosed that described or told a story of the items. [6] Each box was then wrapped in heavy brown packing paper, tied with yarn or twine, and had vintage-era postage stamps affixed as well as various special delivery stickers or stamps.

The story for the letter came from the objects. The recipient for this package, the oldest kid attending, was still at that liminal moment where the child wants to believe but the almost young man is hovering. Knowing that, I selected these objects, and knowing that, a story came into my mind that the letter was from the  former “Head Boy.”

I am going to take the extra step and send you some stuff I know you will need . . . I wrote . . .  The professor of the mundane technology course always requires his students to gather examples of unusual technology.  I never got around to showing him these so I figure I’d save you some time up front by sending them on. I’m sure he’ll be delighted. I ended by telling him of another professor: Too bad Professor E – – –  (or E-cubed, as we upper levels refer to him!) is on sabbatical this year.  He teaches a mean Magical Metals class.  Tough as all get out but he has a great sense of humor which makes it do-able.

Postscript: A year later I heard from someone at the event that this package and letter thoroughly delighted this young man and that he thought the tools to be truly wizarding in nature!

 

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Cream brick famhouse and garage ca. 1930s
Cream brick farmhouse ca 1956
Cream brick farm house and barn seen from a distance looking east
2 men in farm carriage with white hourse pose in front of barn and cream brick farmhouse with garage, ca. 1930s

My childhood home was this farmhouse. The two upper left and lower right photos are from the 1930s, the lower left from around 1910, and the upper right from 1956. The house itself was built in the 1840s. Our family of twelve lived there beginning in the mid-1950s through the early 2000s. Surrounded by acres of farmland originally, during our time that land had been parceled out and the house stood magnificently alone among blocks and blocks of post-World War II houses.

Corner floor-to-ceiling cabinet made of wood. Upper door has 5 glass panes; lower third is a wood door.

The smaller, house-shaped section to the right of the garage held the kitchen in its entirety. Where the piano is in this photo to the left is where a cast iron cook stove would have stood. You can see just see the chimney for it in the upper images.

In the kitchen corner was this cabinet for the best dishes. My parents kept their small set of wedding china there. The little door below is what fascinated me. When I was four I dreamt I opened it and went inside. So vivid was the dream that I remember it to this day. The actual cupboard had a few shelves. In my dream, just inside the inside top was a small rectangular opening about two by eight inches. Brilliant sunlight flooded down onto what was then a linoleum-covered floor. In the way of dreams I pushed myself through the opening and found myself in our backyard. It was and wasn’t our yard, filled with many more trees and it shimmered with that same unearthly sunlight.

I have had dreams as vivid as this but except for one other none have stayed with me. That one was more recent (about five years ago) and more typical of the dreams I have now: detailed, visual to the point of cinematic, and rich in storytelling. This particular dream felt called out my subconscious. I’d been pulling together the underlying substance for the academic mystery series I wanted to write. As I cannot write with any focus or success until I see the place for a tale, I was doing a lot of image web browsing of campus maps and old photos of colleges from the late 19th- and early 20th-centuries.

One weirdly sleepless night I feel into a brief, very deep sleep. It seemed I dreamt for hours. I found myself both on an old college campus and watching it all as a non-participating observer. There were my buildings, the layout, the great oak trees that lined the old quad. And there was a nearby lake. I didn’t fly over it all but for all that it still felt like one of those cool flying dreams! I saw people, knew who they were and how they knew each other. Part way through it all I woke up, just enough to realize what was happening. I told myself to “look harder” and dove back in, now half asleep and half awake. Then I made myself truly wake up. I grabbed my sketchbook and frantically wrote up notes, recording in some places but in others letting the dream push my awake self to invent more. Just now, as I wrote this last sentence, I looked at those sketchbook pages again and had to laugh. I had labeled the pages “a screenplay.”

Holding on to OR MAKING ideas

In 1885 Robert Louis Stevenson had a bad dream. His wife Fanny spoke of it later: “In the small hours of one morning . . . I was awakened by cries of horror from Louis. Thinking he had a nightmare, I awakened him. He said angrily: ‘Why did you wake me? I was dreaming a fine bogey tale.’ I had awakened him at the first transformation scene.” [7]  Stevenson, ill and bedridden, subsequently wrote the book we know as The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde over the course of the next few days. [8]

While I rarely have nightmares this vivid, my dreams are typically as intense. I put it down to insomnia. (My mother used to joke that I had sleep issues even as an embryo.) I also have one of those brains that simply does not shut down visually. The proverbial counting sheep trick doesn’t work because the beasties are moving! The only way I can get to sleep is to visualize vast swaths of fabric simply hanging there, or to imagine I am looking at a night sky close up.

Megan Schmidt, writing for Discover magazine about who remembers their dreams and why narrowed it down nicely for me:

“. . .  it seems that brain differences, individual characteristics and aspects related to the dreams themselves all play a role.” [9]

Over time I have learned to be aware in my dreams. If I am relaxed enough I can dream lucidly, my insomnia is a version of the “wake back to bed” mode for encouraging lucid dreams. [10] But rather than engage in a quiet activity, such as reading, while awake as this method suggests, I imagine characters and scenes for the book I am writing. It’s a bit like sitting in that Victorian wheelchair again. I simply sit and watch people move and talk.

When I fall asleep again I may or may not dream my stories but I do tend to fall asleep with a kind of heightened awareness. That is, I almost always know I am dreaming. If I am close enough to that threshold of sleeping and wakefulness I can control or design the dream. More often, though, my observing self tends to say stuff like “this is important” and “don’t forget this one.”

WRITE IT OUT

In the final section of the Schmidt article, she cites Michael Schredl from Germany’s Central Institute of Mental Health. He states thatIt’s really an ability where ‘practice makes perfect.’ In other words, if you keep trying to remember your dreams, you eventually will.” He recommends keeping a dream journal.

I don’t do quite that but I do keep my sketch book or note cards at my bedside. If there is a sentence or phrase I want to expand in in my next day’s writing, I’ll write it out but also write the context. Or, as in the case above where I dreamed my college campus into existence along with a few characters and the bare bones of a plot, I get up and go to the guest room next door that serves as my writing space. Then, since I am usually wide awake, I write out as much as I can of what I saw, what people said, and what the story was.

It’s hardly a perfect process as I often forget dreams between sleep interludes or am too sleepy to get up and write, but the more I do it the better it works. And I comfort myself knowing that if I forget one dream, there will be another that will likely be along similar lines. Dr. Jekyll and his counterpart Mr. Hyde did not appear from nowhere. Stevenson had noted that he’d “. . . long been trying to write a story on this subject, to find a body, a vehicle for that strong sense of man’s double being which must at times come in upon and overwhelm the mind of every thinking creature.” [11]

THINK ABOUT WHAT IF

We all have those moments: If only I’d said ‘this’ or if only that person lived here not there. We imagine what would be different if something else had been different as well. I find I can get some keen and sometimes fantastic ideas for characters or plot by tweaking things this way.

In my academic mystery there is a hockey player, a coach. She is cocky and self assured. She’s interesting and fun to write but she seemed flat. I need her to be somehow less perfectly the gold medal winner she is. What if she weren’t as good as people say she is? Or, what if she was once but isn’t now? If either of those, what made that difference? What if, I thought, what if she were injured in a way that changed who she is now. What do hockey players need besides physical skill and endurance? They need to see everything that’s going on. What if my golden girl was legally blind in one eye due to a recent on-ice accident? A little research into NHL player injury gave me some good ideas and now my character is something more as is my story.

When reading what I wrote I have other what if moments. What if ‘X’ happened two days prior? What if the murderer is not the only one? It means a boat load of rewriting, but then I have different versions to compare.

For another take on this, see this blog essay “Let’s Agree About Conflict” by writer KJ Charles. In the second half she talks about obstacles. Obstacles are a kind of what if. By tweaking something here or there, so much can change. As Charles put it when considering a set of obstacles for a set of characters, what if she had decided differently:

All of those decisions could have worked. All of them would have led to the characters developing and reacting differently. And since plot is character in action, we’d have ended up with completely different books.” [12]

LET YOUR MIND WANDER

Fireplace video on vertical monitorIn this time of intense social media bombardment, of frantic and dangerous world events, of private personal and familial concerns, letting one’s mind simply go is not an easy thing. I try to turn away from social media at least twice a week. And by away I mean just that. It’s not easy since I am sitting at my desk with my several work monitors; which is why I can only manage it twice a week! I do much of my writing research online. But I force myself to do it—not open any new tabs on my laptop, shut down my phone. Sometimes it takes me several times to get myself to do this.

One trick I’ve found is running a relaxing video at full size on the monitor to my left. Right now it’s running a 10-hour burning fireplace, complete with crackling sounds. I find it immensely soothing. And when I need to let my writer’s mind wander, I turn off the other monitor and just look at the fire crackle away. Here are a few other channels I’ve found good videos on:

 

 

    • Ambience of Yesteryear (which they describe as a “collection of yesteryear-inspired cinemagraphs with historical themes, for ambience and ASMR.”)
    • The Silent Watcher (described as a collection of  “videos of beautiful and relaxing nature scener and sounds”)
    • Cat Trumpet (a collection of “videos . . . ideal for sleep, study, meditation and stress relief”)

More recently, I am learning more about deep breathing exercises. I am not trying to meditate though, for what I want is a daydreaming, associative floating experience, not the meditation goal of the empty or blank mind. I want to play, in a way, I want to see where my mind takes an image, like that woman runner, or a what if notion, or extrapolating a dream story. The breathing helps me slow down my comet-hopping visual mind. This info page over at HealthLine provides instruction for 10 breathing exercises.

Finding ideas for stories or the like is largely a matter of being open to what’s out there. If I try too hard I lose the flow of discovery. If I don’t take the time to relax, without judgment, and simply allow my curious mind to see, I can just as easily miss things. For me it is a matter of seeing, a posture of mind. The ideas are there for the taking if one but will.

 

 

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HOW TO CITE THIS POST

Jablonski, J.A. (2022, March 22). Signs of Ideas. Blog post. J.A. Jablonski (website).
https://jajablonski.com/2022/03/22/signs-of-ideas/

 

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Header Image:

First Lady Ida McKinley in the White House Conservatory (circa. 1900). From The White House Historical Association.

Three small old fashioned light bulbs. Modified version of this public domain image.

Vertical image set of found items-turned-magical-postal-gift. All photos by J.A. Jablonski. All rights reserved.

Cream brick farmhouse. On Milwaukee website. Kitchen corner image modified from realtor ad.

Fireplace video on vertical computer monitor. By J.A. Jablonski. All rights reserved.

 

SELECTED SOURCES | NOTES

[1] Popova, Maria. (2014). Ursula K. Le Guin on Where Ideas Come From, the “Secret” of Great Writing, and the Trap of Marketing Your Work. (blog post). Brain Pickings. [NOTE: Popova has renamed this site The Marginalian.]

[2] Burkley, Melissa. (2017, December 4). Where Do Writers Get Their Ideas? Blog post. The Social Thinker. Psychology Today. Burkley also wrote a blog from 2017-2019 called The Writer’s Laboratory Blog that I’ve found insightful.

[3]  Read more about Ida McKinley at this page from the National Park Service.

[4] I wrote about this wizarding event on my artist’s blog, Dante’s Wardrobe. Here is the link to that set of posts.

[5] Writing fictional correspondences is a blast! If you are interested in how to start one and how to make your own letterhead, mailboxes, faux postage, etc. see this collection of posts on my Dante’s Wardrobe site.  NOTE: This is a fun classroom activity as well as one for lovers, roommates, and families.

[6] The posts listed in note #4 here include a subset on what I referred to as the faux packages. You can find those at this link.

[7] Balfour, Graham (1912). The Life of Robert Louis Stevenson. Vol. II. New York: Charles Scribner’s Sons, pg. 15.

[8] An e-version of The Strange Case of Dr. Jekyll and Mr. Hyde can be found on the Project Gutenberg website here.

[9] Schmidt, Megan. (2019, July 14). “Why Do Some People Always Remember Their Dreams, While Others Almost Never Do?” From Discover website.

[10] Nunez, Kirsten. (updated on January 5, 2022). “5 Lucid Dreaming Techniques to Try.” Healthline website.

[11] Luckhurst, Roger. (n.d.) “Robert Louis Stevenson’s Strange Case of Dr Jekyll and Mr Hyde.” British Library website. Accessed March 18, 2022.

[12] Charles, KJ. (2021, June 25). “Let’s Talk About Conflict.” Blog post. KJ Charles website.

3 Women | A Photo Tribute

Closeup of 1914 poster for Women's Day by Karl Maria Stadler shows woman in long black dress proudly & strongly waving a large banner.

On International Women’s Day I honor 3 women who made me the person I am today.

Marion M. Jablonski

Harriet Offley Nelson

Ursula K. Le Guin

They were in their own unique ways astoundingly powerful & creative.

Portrait of Marion M. Jablonski. Shows a white woman in her late 70s wearing floral suit jacket, pink turtleneck, & silver earrings & eyeglasses. Text notes she was 1st of her family to attend college; Mother of 10 children; Academic Administrative Asst; Writer; & Poet
Collage of writings by M. Jablonski includes book covers of a family memoir & stories from her days as a child growing up on a farm, & partial views of a few of published poems. At lower left is black & white photo of the 1840s era farmhouse which was our family home.
men posing for picture. Both have short hair and are smiling broadly. Text on screen lists Ms. Nelson's career credentials: Head of Reference Services| John K. Mullen Library at The Catholic University of America, Wash D.C.; Librarian | College of New Jersey & Purdue University; BA Psychology, Swarthmore College; MLS Medical Librarianship, University of Chicago; MS Developmental Psychology, Columbia University
Ursula K Le Guin stands at a lectern. Shows an older white woman with short, bowl-cut white hair & glasses. She is smiling. Text below image lists some of her key credentials: Author, Poet, Essayist, Translator, Hugo & Nebula award winner (multiple), SFWA Grandmaster, Feminist, Activist
College image shows portion of a letter I received from Ms. Le Guin. A stone covers the return address. To the right is a partial view of the cover of the book Ursula K. Le Guin: Conversations on Writing.

  © J.A. Jablonski 2022. All rights reserved.

HOW TO CITE THIS POST

Jablonski, J.A. (2022, March 8 ). 3 Women | A Photo Tribute. Blog post. J.A. Jablonski (website).

https://jajablonski.com/2022/03/08/3-women-photo-tribute

 

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Marion M. Jablonski. Author Photo. © Marion Jablonski Esate. All rights reserved.

Collected writings of Marion M. Jablonski. Images by J.A. Jablonski. All rights reserved.

Black & white photo, circa 1960s, of brick farmhouse. Photo by Louis S. Jablonski. All rights reserved.

Ursula K. Le Guin. Publicity photo by Jack Liu. © 2014 Jack Liu 

Letter by Ursula K. Le Guin. Unpublished. Photo by J.A. Jablonski. All rights reserved.

Character Morgues: Finding Faces

Intense woman with with short blond hair & blue eyes, smiling white teen with longish hair, older bearned black man

The face is the mirror of the mind,
and eyes without speaking confess the secrets of the heart.
~ St. Jerome

As part of my writing practice I create character morgues. At the beginning of a story I usually have only a general notion of what my people look like. Having more specific images helps me work out not just how they look but their psychology and their backstory. The idea for morgues came from my college days.

Undergraduates are famous for changing their majors and I was no different. I started out in theater because the most fun I had in high school was working on the school plays. I eventually ended up getting the BA in English Literature, but those first months crawling around the university’s theater building remain among my best memories.

The stage makeup class is something I still look to as a writer. We had to create a makeup morgue, a collection of pictures and photographs of examples people of various ages, unusual makeups, and hairstyles. They could be modern images or historical. The morgue served as your personalized reference book that helped you envision your characters’ look and makeup.

Person of indeterminate gender covered with thick gold paint
Geisha

Sample morgue images

Distressed woman

To find pictures for my morgue I often use Google Images, Unsplash, and Tumblr.

Google Images

I do straightforward searching with keywords for what I am looking for. As a librarian I get fancy with my search strings and use Boolean connectors. (More info on that below!). For instance, I wanted images of a nonbinary teen. Here’s what I searched . . .

(nonbinary OR non-binary OR “non binary”) AND (teen OR adolescent)

. . . and here’s a screenshot of the results:

Screenshot of Google Images search results

Clicking on the image brings it up on the side in a larger format. Then I right click to save it.

Unsplash

I tried the same search string as I used in Google Images but got some messy results. Not all the images matched what I had in mind. In Boolean searching “AND” means BOTH terms need to be in the results. But with Unsplash images the “AND” feature doesn’t seem to work as well. So I keep my searching terms more general. For instance, just searching nonbinary AND teen or nonbinary teen resulted in the one set of  images. Searching just on nonbinary resulted in a very different set, some of which were more personal in nature.

Screenshot of search results showing nonbinary teens

Unsplash results for
nonbinary AND teen and nonbinary teen

Screenshot of search results for nonbinary

Unsplash results for nonbinary

Tumblr

Tumblr is a microblogging social media site. To use it you need to be logged in. I have an account but
do not use it to blog. I use it solely as a writer- and artist-resources tool, for character and idea inspiration, for backstory and setting images, etc. So I mostly follow the blogs of museums, photo historians, so-called artist fan blogs, cities and archaeologists (for the architecture), and fashion historians. Here are just a few I’ve found super useful: 

NOTE: Tumblr has a search function that you can use to find feeds on specific topics. Look for the magnifying glass icon and/or the words “Search Tumblr.”

What Words to Use

So, you’ve a character in mind but are trying to find an image to help you zero in while you write. What words should you use in the search box? See those three at the top of this post? For the woman at the leftimagining now that my character is a woman who has perhaps been a little hard used by life so looks a little older than her actual ageI searched these terms in Unsplash: thoughtful woman, older woman, and tired woman. For the teen in the middle I just search for teen and smiling teen. And for the gent at the right I searched older black man and middle aged black man.

I make sure to have an images folder in each of my character folders so it is easier to find them later. When working I have a second monitor to the left of my writing laptop. Then when I am doing major backstory work or character development notes, I put the images of that character or character up on the screen.

Using Images

Something to keep in mind: Many images online are copyrighted. If you plan on making a public or online version of your morgues, you’ll want to make sure you are using images designated as public domain, or that have a Creative Commons license notice, or for which you have permission from the image owner.

Here are some info links about this:


Searching for Images Online (or anything else!)

I mentioned Boolean searching above. Fear not! The name comes from George Boole, a 19th-century English mathematician. He established the rules of symbolic logic. Basically, Boolean searching lets you combine keywords words and phrases to get more focused results. The combining is done by using the words AND, OR, NOT (known as Boolean operators). A search using these operators will  limit, broaden, or define your search. Knowing how to put together a search string (as it is called) using the AND, OR, and NOT operators really  is a superpower!  Click here for the MIT Libraries’ info on how to do Boolean searching.

 

 

If you have a question or comment for me, drop me a line via my Contact page.

© J.A. Jablonski 2022. All rights reserved.

HOW TO CITE THIS POST

Jablonski, J.A. (2022, Feb 15 ). Character Morgues: Finding Faces. Blog post. J.A. Jablonski (website).
https://jajablonski.com/2022/02/15/character-morgues/

 

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